TABI

Naranasan mo na ba
Mawalan ng makakasama?
Sa gitna ng daan
Hindi malaman ang pupuntahan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Naranasan mo na ba
Madapa at masugatan?
Hawakan mo ako
Hinding-hindi iiwan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Paraluman - Tabi - Paraluman

This song/lyrics reminds me of myself & not pertaining to whatever you think..hehe.. Whether or not you agree with it.. I believe that I'm always on the run to anyone who needed me most.. Self-sacrificing as you called it. Massive consumption is what I can describe myself *derived from "the fear lyrics". Some friends would always been telling me how come I did those things to others? Why don't I first think of my own future instead? I've been really a big stupid being and I don't know how to deal with this kind of life! The huge problem with me is that I'm not familiar of the words "no way"!! I don't want to reject others, however deep within I'm dying to say that uneasy words!! I'm functioned not to say NO! waahh! For almost all of my life, I'm dealing with that..! Even with my classmates, friends, relatives whom asked me for a favor for instance..i can't just say NO! Maybe what answered I concluded even before is the fact that I'm afraid of REJECTION that's why saying NO is not an excuse... i hope that behind these sacrifices is a Golden Lining waiting for me...Only God knows... Whoever can help me or give some piece of advice..you can do so.. will be appreciated.. :)

2009 SUMMER VACATION

The week that has been was one of the most memorable vacation so far. After two years of not being able to even visit my mom side's province, we finally grab this one week vacation courtesy of mommy yolly. We rode on a plane [cebu pacific] last May 26, 2009 12:05 pm.Only 5 of us managed to get there [me, mama, papa, aljon and kua mon] since our other relatives have difficulties whether financial or by distance conflicts. But anyways, the trip must go on.

@ Terminal Three

Since our grandparents are getting old and we want them both to enjoy and spend time w/ each other together with our relatives there. Though it's kinda weird coz it was the first time we actually have our vacation w/ only five of us mªnileños..just so you know, more than 10 persons were we everytime we visit there.

May 24 - 1st day in Ormoc. From Tacloban Airport [Arrived there @ 5pm not to be exact..lol.], we rode a service van [duptours] going to Ormoc. Fetched by Tito Noe and dropped by to Tita Hermie's crib and fetched her and tito edwin as well going to Curva. My LOLO's Bday! A celebration and gatherings or reunion w/ relatives. There's Lechon and other craving foods. My mom, dad, aljon and kua mon were all busy catching up things w/ our relatives while I watched TV and a bit bored. shh..

May 26 - Ate jan, bb shawn and anne's arrival day from Manila. Catched up. I was drunk courtesy of TUBA and Matador! My gawsh! It was my first time be tipsy like that! First time ko nagsuka ng bongangbonga! *excuse me!* lmao! Super sakit sa ulo! Para akong magcocollapse! LMAO! But the night was fun, videoke..laughters.. and all that! saya! We slept in Papa Roy's house..hehe. Due to tipsyness.

ate jan & bb shawn


look who's tipsy!!

sing and drink.

May 27 - We went in Ormoc City Proper to rent in a Internet shop but first we dropped by to Tita Hermie's house. Updated all the internet accounts and then played rock legends in FB. I was about to watch BOF but then my cousins decided to go to Gaisano coz we're gonna buy in the supermarket. Then, we went straight home after buying the necessary items. After eating our dinner, Me, aljon and Kua mon, again went to Papa roy's house. Nagperya kami w/ Ate Jan, Anne, and Dodong..I dunno what you called that game but I know it's common to any peryahan...Ung may dice na three pices w/ different colors on its sides. Then you have to guess what color will appear upon rolling the dice. Something like that..hehe.. Cant you imagine, I lose 2 pesos!! watta! hahaha!! Watched Poohkwang and then slept @ Papa Roy's house.

May 28 - Headed to Palompon to visit San Antonio de Padua. Pray, pray.. After that, we headed to baybay and ate our lunch @ the seaside..Chicken Barbeque yumyum! Me and Aljon wanted to go again to ate jan but kua mon was LAZY and just slept, telebabad..haaarrrr!

Tita Sonia & Mama

May 29 - Bisperas ng Fiesta! After watching primetime bida.. @ 12midnight.. we went again to Papa Roy's house before we head to the disco! haha. Picture2 then drunk a little. we didn't danced because most of the song were bisrock! watta!!? We can't relate!! huhu.. then after we decided to go home instead...the DJ played foreign songs!!!!! watta?!!! ... we chitchatted and slept.

kua ronan.kua mon.ate jan.len.anne.aljon


Jay-R & Aljon


ate jan & me @ the disco


Kua Mon.Jepjep.Len.Anne.Ate Jan.Aljon

May 30 - Happy Fiesta!!! Early in the morning, aljon, kua mon and me..went home..coz we slept in Papa roy's house. We have to prepare for the mass and christening of my inaanak gabrielle therese cruz [ gLaiza's bb girl]. Yeah ofcours, Filipino Time, we're half a hour late!! but don't you worry coz the homily was a hour long! gawsh!!! After the mass was the baptism..then, we went to the reception in Gly's relatives near the parish church... The foods were all great! So after we ate, kua mon and I went straight to Papa Roy's house again..nakiki-fiesta lang! hahaha. I preferred to stay there coz i find it boring to go home..there's no videoke and people to have chikahan w/.hehe.. ate jan. anne, and ate wayette were there.. Sila ka-chikahan ko! haha.Videoke again and I'm a bit tipsy again! wahaha! Picture2 w/ gigi [ate wayette bb girlk] I'm ready for another disco but unfortunately there's no disco that night! Us three, kua mon aljon and I, went home to fix ourselves and have a short nap but mine was about 4 hours I think haha. I woke up 12midnight. Then Us Three went to Curva to see if there's disco or whatever..There is but the main concept was the coronation night for Miss Curva I guess. then we we to Papa Roy's house to check if they're still awake.. but they're not..so we just went home and sleep.

Anne.Shawn.Gigi.Aljon.Ghera

May 31 - Swimming @ Lamanok! Babad kami ni Anne! Adik kami! haha. i haven't been into a beach for 2 years..so I said that very moment...this is it! wahaha! Together w/ two stranger teenager kids, we prompt to swim into the far side or almost malalim na part ng dagat! At first, anne and I were kinda scared to go farther but then we enjoyed it! Though malakas ang wave, go pa rin kami until my uncle instructed us to come back at the seashore, kc delikado na daw..hehe. Super fun talaga.. Our boys or cousins were like korny kc tagal nila bago maligo...mga inarte! haha..I and Anne got bruises bcoz of the rough rock we tried to climb! After the swim swim swim, We went home fixed ourselves then went to the City to buy some delicacies for pasalubong.

aljon in the middle of the ocean


Me & Anne


Shawn


Nikkie.Me.Anne.Aljon

June 1 - 6:10 am departure time from Tacloban to Manila. We're so exhausted and Sleepy. 8:30am arrival @ our house.. Home Sweet Home. Later in the afternoon, I headed to Dagupan w/ Ate Jan and Anne.. sumabay lang ako sa kanila. Their destination was actually in Tarlac. Chika Galore kami while in the bus and super tawanan to death!! Sa amin na lng ang pinagkwen2han nmen! super laughtrip talaga! ampupu! I arrived in Dagupan approx. 10pm. Tired super.

June 2 - Back again in Manila w/ Angel Mae. Need to take care of her for a month for her studies.

The vacation, though shortlived, still was a blast! the memories shared with loved ones will surely endured and treasured eternally. Kabitin lang.

Cenxa sa d ko nareplyan!! i'll try soon..ayt?!! hihi...i'll be really busy super!! huhu..d na masyado maka2pag-adiktus..grrr! anyways, i'll find time to reply to all u folks..:) labshoooo all!:D

Check out other photos @ my MULTIPLY.

UPSET OF THE CENTURY

But of course, this is the update i've been waiting for! Can't you just imagine how come I am now renting in a computer shop just to type this whole entry!! hahaa.. just so you know, my monitor is sort of a trash! haha! Haven't been here for couple of years that's why it really felt kinda weird but anyways I'm dying to post this new entry for the sake of getting rid of my hatred or whatever! LOL.

What's up w/ the title?? UPSET OF THE CENTURY! Perfect title ever! lol. For some who are familiar...yeah I'm an American idol freak and it's just killin' me of what just happened yesterday!

• The final judgement has been already took place yesterday, and yes, it's KRIS ALLEN who won and beaten ADAM LAMBERT! How's that?? I'm telling you, in my part it was distressing!!
• Congrats to KRIS ALLEN! I know, he's deserving but no one can erase the fact that ADAM LAMBERT is much deserving to the title. No offense to "guy next door's" fans, i'm a fan as well just after he sang "heartless".
• I was surprised actually but I also prepared myself coz I know how American Idol consistenly shocks everyone w/ the results. Seriously, I can't prevent my tears from falling just after Seacrest announced the winner! So dramatic! LOL.
  
• Heaven knows how exceptional, unbelievable talent ADAM has! He never failed his audience w/ his unstoppable unique performance!! Hands down!! Still, I'm very disappointed..huhu
  
• I hate how my friends teased me! haha.. they said that I'm LOSER! what the...? haha. Never mind. Lambert is a winner still.
• No matter what, I know that he'll make it big way longer & higher than *toot*! He's a superstar! GLAMROCK rules! lmao! [what's wrong w/ me??]
• Guys, just don't mind me..haha.. I'm insanely crazy!??!? I need to burst out my rants! gRRR!
• I'm so upset, upset and upset! It's unbelievable!!! Hear me?! Unbelievable!! You teeny american girls who voted for Kris!!!! Bitter??!!! Don't just base on the looks / guy next door image!! GRRR!
• For sure, I can do nothing w/ regards to this matter but to accept it. No one knows who will make it big!! bwahahaha!!
• Weird. How come ADAM LAMBERT higher up in the trending topics? Didn't Kris Allen won? haha..\:P\
• So much for that, let's rejoice coz KRIS ALLEN won!!!! I'll grieve instead..huhu..TT
• I still <33>

Off the topic..
You're surely familiar w/ Hayden Kho and Katrina Halili's scandalous sex videos. Not only Kat but there are also other personalities involved. The Doctor was quoted as "pervert" by different people who are concern and terrifically mad of what he did. When we speak of perversion it means doing sexual practice beyond what is normal or is also considered as paraphilia or abnormal sexual activity. I mentioned this matter coz being in the same field of profession, not actually the same but it somewhat belong to the medical field or healthcare, common sense will tell you that such actions are immoral knowing you are a professional who gained sufficient education regarding this kind of matter. I can say that what he did was unacceptable to any law whether to Man's Law or to God's Law. In the first place, each of us should be responsible w/ our actions. I can't find a good reason why people doing such act but it can be related to a medical condition or disorder. But to top it all, no one can judge the persons involved based on this kind of malicious scandal. One should be open-minded and take into consider the real victim and they're the women who are abused.

Off the topic once more..

I have to inform my friendly "kapitbahay" neighbors that this will be my final blog for the month of May..yeah..big deal! haha.. You can still continuously visit this indescribable blog w/ undefined layout..?! I'll be gone for a week or more coz we'll be having our family vacation in Leyte. See you then. The whole month of June will be a busy month for me. I have to fetch my little cousin in Dagupan coz she'll be studying in Laguna for good. I have a lot of work to do...gawsh! I'll be updating as soon as I can.. Don't let my blog turn into trash huh!!! hahaha.. I'll be missin this.. TTYL.

WHICH IS BETTER??

ADAM LAMBERT - NO BOUNDARIES

KRIS ALLEN - NO BOUNDARIES

COOKIE is a HOTTIE!

Yesterday, May 14, 2009, guess what?!!! I saw DAVID COOK!! He's like few inches away from me! wahaha! Call me Over-reActing but really I'm overwhelmed knowing that I saw him face to face! haha..Though it seems like a glimpse but it did totally flew me away! None of my imagination that i could actually see his face closer aside from T.V. or monitor of my computer! My gawsh! He's freakin damn HOT! The sad part there, we weren't able to buy tickets for the said "Meet & Greet David Cook" event. I was only informed by kua mon about that, few hours ago before the event. Pity me. But anyways, I'm quite satisfied coz as I said few times before, I can't watch DAVIDS concert! :(

show me the video!

[It's kinda shaky coz hell the people around me were like screaming and pushing me!]
[short glimpse of DAVID cookie, i hope you can see him]
[Mamang guards were all a BIG mess!! So apathetic!*epal*]

*Due to depression, we ate our heart out @ TokyoTokyo! We took few shots then went home.

erisa /ghera/ate grace / jeazhel

Overall, the day was fun though we're not able to get inside the amphitheater w/c was so frustrating. At least, I saw COOKIE like I drooled that very moment! [dream come true, lol] Anyways, we've all got chance to catch up and chika galore at the same time. Thanks ate grace for the treat! Nice to know you more.

I GOT TAGGED!

8 Things:
[tagged by clarence]

8 things I’m looking forward to:
1. No less than to have a freakin JOB.
2. One week vacation in Ormoc, Leyte.
3. Hang out with my long lost cousins.
4. DAVIDS' concert though i can't watch.
5. Edit amazing photos.
6. Camwhoring.
7. American Idol's finale!
8. Someone please give me money! I' such a beggar!

8 things I did yesterday:
1. Pictorial w/ ate jan and anne.
2. Watched Gokusen.
3. Edit kua mon's photos.
4. Ate a lot!
5. Music Tripped.
6. Commented to few bloggers.
7. Watched BOF.
8. Laughed and cried.

8 things I wish I could do:
1. Travel the whole world.
2. Meet David Cook & Adam Lambert!
3. Make millions of money!
4. Diminish the suffering of humanity. May ganon?
5. Eat the world's yummiest dishes ever!
6. Be in the front of the computer 24/7.
7. Fulfill the dreams of my family.
8. Vote the most sufficient candidate for 2010 elections.

8 Shows I watch:
1. American Idol
2. Boys over flowers
3. Only you
4. Tayong Dalawa
5. Hotshot
6. Gokusen
7. Gossip Girl
8. The Tyra Show

Below are the instructions for this tag:

• write anything about 15 persons you know
• don't mention the names of these 15 persons you are referring to
• if someone would ask who are these persons, don't tell them
• tag 15 persons but don't include the persons you included in your post

Here's comes my list:
[tagged by rich]

1. I hope that the money I paid to you is worth it!! Damn Over-priced!
   
2. You sucks! Don't you have conscience?
   
3. Please be strong and patient. God's has his own will why he put this challenges onto you. I know, you will be able to see the bright future ahead for you and your family sooner than you've ever thought.
   
4. I'm aware that all of you think that I'm too, a failure, but then I don't want to lose hope to prove all of you that I can make it.
   
5. Be sure of what you are doing. You know that Karma will find its way to you.
   
6. Respect the person who has been there for you ever since. Don't put her down coz see, she became a part of your life and don't have to put those memories in trash.
   
7. Thank you for trusting me and giving faith on me.
   
8. I hope that someday you'll realized you've been fooled by the person you trust more than anyone. God knows that you deserve such foolishness. Please open your eyes..please!
   
9. Why can't you see how important you are to me?
   
10. Don't continuously stress me! You've been so consistent! Just for once, please get rid of such attitude!
    
11. You're getting old, I hope that I can absorb all your pain and hardship. How I wish...
    
12. Thank you for giving me what I wanted though I'm so undeserving. Don't worry coz I'm gonna pay all depths I caused you and 10 x more!
    
13. I miss how we hang out like crazy! You've been my friend and you'll always be.
    
14. In the very depth of my soul, I apologize for not answering your messages. I miss you indeed. Our friendship will never end and I don't know if you aware of that. It's not that I ignore you guys but,time will tell..there will be a special time for us to bond once again. I promise.
15. I'm very SORRY if I took you for granted. If so I may not find any time to be with you, I'm sorry..I know It's my fault coz I'm too lazy. Please forgive me.

Well, to change this chain..why not make a difference.. whoever wanted to tag him/herself..go ahead and re-post your own List & claim that I tagged you ayt?! ! Sorry if I broke the rule! lol. It's just that, I don't have any idea if you guys already answered this Lists..I'm too lazy to check everyone who hasn't. (:P)

THE FEAR

Ironic it seems but I'm deprived of any single thought to share. Perhaps, this moment my mind is occupied with nonetheless than nothing. Again, there's force within that pushing me to type in my keyboard just to update my spoiled blog. Okey, Here's a sensible lyrics from Lily Allen's "The Fear".

THE FEAR

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and f***loads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

Chorus:
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so f***ing fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m program to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

Chorus:
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Bridge:
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I’m getting thinner

Chorus:
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cause I’m being taken over by fear

I love the song lyrics of Lily Allen's single from her second album It’s Not Me, It’s You. She earned tremendous accolades from this piece. At first, I don't actually managed to listen promptly to the lyrics but upon hearing it few times, i felt in love w/ it. So, the intention by this entry is to break down every stanza of the said song just to put up my personal opinion whether or not you agree with it.

• I want to be rich and I want lots of money
  I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
  I want loads of clothes and f***loads of diamonds
  I heard people die while they are trying to find them

This changing world made each people desire for perfection or at least closer to perfection. Who don't want lots of money? Most of us are materialistic or having bourgeois mentality. It's a driving force for some cruel people to obtain criminal acts just to satisfy they're craving for luxury or wealth. I admit that I'm more of a materialistic and so to say that I know my limitations. We can surely dream big and to achieve, we need to carry our heavy butt off and work with purity and conscientious!

• I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
  ‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
  I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
  I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

The trend nowadays is becoming shameless to one's actions. Self-confidence can also progress into higher level w/c is equivalent to indecency. Trying to catch fame and acquired first-rate attention, some would do the most outrageous thing like there's no tomorrow. Somewhat i realized how hard it is to please anyone as much as you wanted to be. Even if you tried harder, it seems non-sense and no one can really see you still. Maybe some of you will say, "You can't erase the fact that some people will not ever understand you. So don't expect from them." So true and to add up, Just be yourself coz people will love your genuine heart without being sarcastic.

• I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
  I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
  When we think it will all become clear
  ‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

I was caught up with this stanza coz I'm feeling the same way. Actually this is my shout out in FS. The road to success is a bit blurry for me at this time. Rocky road as you can defined it. I've been very unpredictable that I never thought I'll be. As we mature, changes happens unexpectedly. When we were young, we tried to draw our dreams in a piece of paper. Plans were made and sculpturized. Even we voiced out with our close ones how we plan out life to be in the future. But i really don't know How I meant to feel anymore. I keep on saying to myself, "don't lose hope, strive harder and PLEASE move your feet under the ground". However, crisis inside my thought crumbling down with none in the earth i know the reason why. The only fact I know right now is that I'm taken over by the FEAR most specifically ANXIETY or fear of the unknown!

• Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
  It’s all about fast cars and passing each other
  But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
  and that’s what makes my life so f***ing fantastic

The world of today are now polluted of addiction to entertainment issues and taking aside the real problem of the world. Some would associate their lives to their favorite movie stars w/c is too ironic. The character from a series or tv show or whatever were kinda adopted by most of the generation today. They imitate those people that they idolize or maybe worshipped. That's a fad and sometimes becoming addictive. Everything was all about what's in and what's hot. People who wants to be on the line of trend, tried hard to become one of those social climbers. Taking to the aside of being into a group of socialite is big plus for some. Nonetheless, i don't care at all of what's written in this paragraph. haha. It's random and blurred. lmao. I'm a fan of some artists, so I belong! lol. But to the extent that I'll be TH or trying hard & crazy over them! In addition, Being plastic has its own positive and negative attributes. Yes, I'm plastic at times to those people who are undeserving. Being sarcastic is another topic and if argue regarding that, it will took me hours to type all my thoughts! Don't get me wrong. As the word implies, PLASTIC can be good in a most special way you haven't knew yet.

• And I am a weapon of massive consumption
  and its not my fault it’s how I’m program to function
  I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
  I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

Based on how I understand this we became, once, twice, or few times in our life, used by others for some reasons whether we're aware or unaware. But for me, I'll try to put this in a good way. My purpose in life is to fulfill my family's dream as much as mine. My second priority is myself. Maybe they don't even realized that coz I'm not showy and I don't give them idea of that fact. I was born to help others and that's my function. I remember how I used to think back then everytime I'm mad. I rant and said to myself that,"I'm just a robot here, everyone care less about me!" Well that was just a petty drama and I believed that there's no wrong with me as a massive consumption to my family and afterwards, to those people in need. Daydreaming makes me accomplished all of which..to help my family and deprived people. But believe me, someday I'm gonna make all those in reality. I want to be an instrument to change the world. Watch me out!

• Forget about guns and forget ammunition
  Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
  Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
  Now everything is cool as long as I’m getting thinner

PEACE is the word that will describe this. It's the rarest word ever. As I said previously, I'm a piece of instrument that will make a change in my own little way. This time I'll try harder to fulfill my part in my existence in humanity.

HANDWRITING

I got tagged by gello kun.

MY HANDWRITING


I think some of you are familiar of this commercial by a little girl advertised by Camella Homes.
I'm kinda suffering to sickness called "LSS" or Last Song Syndrome! lol
Forget about my handwriting coz i haven't practiced that skill for almost a year!

So now, do i have to pass this or rather tag others as well? Sorry, newbie is in the house!:P
Here's the list:
Charmoii
Jaimee
Kathrinx
Lollii
Rich