EXPECTATIONs

By the time we realized what goal to pursue, a sudden opportunity popped up that will change everything. As we age, many hopes and wishes had been constructed. We run through possibilities and chances that will make or break the ice. Patience keeps our strong-willed purpose to be well-furnished and stabilized. Fact of life remains that nothing can be as perfect as we expected an outcome to be. Hindrances are inerasable most probably at instances in which we try to escape from them.

Sometimes life can be so dramatic. It paves way for chances but at the end of the line, it’s useless. It makes us taste the sweetness of success and let us swallow the bitterness of failure vice versa. In a typical soap opera, success is achievable in a wink of an eye. The main actor will first experience hardship but afterwards, like a fairytale, their life will have a happy ending. Not in real life. Far from that, our life is a big maze. Our role is to choose the right path and don’t be fooled by choosing the wrong one. We can be assured that it ain’t easy.

Without being farther from the main ideology, all are casted to dream big as they go along with different promises and expectations given by their own beliefs, hence, make beliefs. Furthermore, a moment can be too surprising because of a one chance that we once doubted will be achieve drastically. Seems funny how destiny plays its part in investing and directing our life in impromptu scenario unprepared. Life is a mystery needed to be unfolded and discovered over and over again.

LONG & WINDING ROAD

Oh man! I'm in a mood right now to share w/ you insights about my recent activities or whatever! Anyway, countless days have passed through and I can't even recall the significant one coz most of the days were all alike. Same routine, same old brand new day.
Here's what my mind can remember.....

July 10-12, 2009 = A short vacation in Dagupan to celebrate in advance the 1st year old birthday of my dear little cousin, PJ/patrick james. It was four of us [me, ate anabel, meryl grace & angel mae] managed to visit since there's no classes [friday] and the coming 2 days were obviously weekends. The journey going there was for about 6 long hours. Sitting for that long is becoming an easy one for me knowing that I mostly travel several times a year. Going back to the intention of the visit, other thing that was prepared for the family was an overnight swimming in a resort in Labrador, Pangasinan. The weather was like unpredictable. If it rains at this time, few hours later, it's sunny. But nothing can't stop us to enjoy the breeze of rural's clean air and clear water t[hough we're just in a pool]. The pools were not crowded by unknown people. It looked like we rent the whole resort I should say.

July 30, 2009 = Interviewed by the chief nurse in Perpetual Succor Hospital. My first time to be interviewed in a hospital but before you assumed that I'm applying for a staff nurse position, sorry I'm not. How I wish but it was just a volunteer nurse for few months. Good thing about that day was I'm one of the fortunate ones coz I'm the second in line to be interviewed then after me, the interview wasn't resumed hence, rescheduled next week w/c was really frustrating were most of them kept waited for I think 5-6 hours including me coz after my interview i decided to rather stay & wait for them to proceed. I met new people, friends or colleagues who became close to me after a few conversations, laughter & sharing.

August 10-14, 2009 = RED CROSS WEEK. BLS & SFA Training in PNRC Rizal Chapter. Met new friends and learned a lot!! Super fun and I never thought that I'll enjoyed the training! *photos to follow*

August 15, 2009 = Christening of Aiken Josh, Kuya Glenn's baby!

August 16, 2009 = Job Hunt around Pasig City and few in Makati City w/ Che. Like before, there's no good luck for us. In addition, the rainy climate was so irritating getting us out of our league but never gave up 'til our last pit stop where we saw a bright future though it still blurry for a naked eyes to see..WTF?!!

August 15-18, 2009 = 4 days vacation of Ate Jan, Baby Shawn & Karen in Laguna before they leave for good. We had a lot of fun together in the remaining days that they're here in the Philippines. We went oh so gaga dancing and fooling around. Yep, you read it right, we danced the dance craze "nobody" trying to memorize the step but unluckily, only the 1st phrase and the chorus were learned lol. Red wine while setting the timer / smile detector of the digicam doing crazy stuffs / poses definitely super funny!

August 18, 2009 = Lola's arrival from Ormoc to stay here in laguna for indefinite weeks. She came here to visit us and to see her "apos". This day also the time Ate Jan and rest were went off to Tarlac.

August 21, 2009 = Ate Arlene and kids [potpot & PJ] arrived!!! So good to see Pj grew that BIG literally!! The Coquia kids were reunited w/ their ate angel who's studying here in Laguna away from them.

August 23, 2009 = BON VOYAGE!! Ate Jan & Baby Shawn's departure going to Qatar where Kuya Warren employed. At last, they're together after a long time of being technically apart. Surely, I'll be missing both of you.

August 30, 2009 = Family Fun Day @ Angel's School, Canossa School. Me and Ate Anabel came w/ Angel to attend the said event. There's few games for the kids as well as parents to play. Some intermission numbers prepared by the kids [Senior kinder]. Angel played the calamansi relay and I can say that she's really good coz the calamansi did't fell down the floor..hehe. Afterwards, we decided to drop by @ Sm Sta. Rosa.
= Kuya Aming arrival from KSA. After we roamed around @ SM, we went home to see our relatives come together, more like a mini reunion thing.

MOTHER OF DEMOCRACY

R.I.P. CORAZON AQUINO

I'M SO LATE...! I know!! ahahaa...but this is just a simple message i want to everyone to realize.. Death is maybe the end of life, but the essence of living and dying for a perfect reason is unmeasurable. Sacrificing oneself for the whole nation and getting our right for freedom, indeed was the bravest thing to do considering the faith to God above anything else.

SALAMAT po.


Messages from people who will truly miss Tita Cory.

I made a poem for tita cory...

"YELLOW"

A renowned woman reprived from pain
Whole nation grieved in the pouring rain
Debris dreams from the past were revived
Only until she have fought the fight

Pious person and mother of all
Simple, endearing, and lovable
Honest leader with integrity
A servant of God consistently

A sudden melancholy occurred
Made her contributions remembered
Craving for eternal freedom
That will bring us all to the kingdom

She never failed us, not even once
Surrendered her heart and soul for us
Driving force towards democracy
Truly contagious as we have seen

Tranquil battlefield as you called it
Peaceful encounter with enemies
Prayers considered as a medium
Vehicle going away from doom

Inert emotions were diminished
Unchained after decades of hardship
She unified the Filipinos
Her exceptional spirit still glows

Now that she's gone, Filipinos mourn
Biggest sympathy to the nation
For they have lost a grateful treasure
Inspiration to a bright future

Cory, a name that speaks thousand words
Heroine. truly admirable
Yellow confettis to salute her
You'll remain in our heart forever.

SCHOOL FACTS

Rich tagged me!
These are some school facts... ̿ ̿̿'\̵͇̿̿\o=(•̪●)=o/̵͇̿̿/'̿

1. At nursery or Kindergarten, I was able to read and write according to my parents.. I never had a tutor or someone to teach me with my home works and schools stuffs.. I studied, do all my assignments and projects all by myself.
   
2. Funny thing when I'm still in 2nd year of my HS. I'm always one of the highest scorer in quizzes or exams in Geometry w/c really killing us that time. Actually most of us can't relate to some topics and I don't have any idea why am I always getting an average score or should I say, "pasang awa" when most of my classmates getting failed. Haha..Now I know...highest scorer coz as i mentioned most of my CM were all failed the tests..
3. I sometimes cheat with my CM making sure that my prof doesn't notice me or else I will die! lol. It's a two way process.. I get answers from them then they'll cheat as well never minding if the answers were all correct! But most of the times, I let my cheatmates copy my assignments or tests answers...wahaha..that's fun I'm telling you but if others exceeded to the extent that they turned out to be a deadly parasite, well that's another story. Take note, I'm not a parasite coz sometimes I just compare my answers to my seatmate if we're likely the same..Is that also a form of cheating?? WHTVR!
   
4. I'm not an active student who's fond of joining school activities or programs coz I'm bit reserved and it was only when I step in College. In my 1st year in college I joined the school's "teatro". It's unbelievable though knowing ghera..Some of my HS friends were like in doubt and don't actually imagined me acting..But unfortunately, our "teatro" suddenly dissolved but the experiences,acting & dance lessons, workshops, friends still linger in my thoughts everytime I remember the days..
5. I hate reportings, return demos, and recitation!!! And also having hospital duty w/ the worst C.I.s ever!!!!! Nothing could ever been worse than that!

Now I'm tagging whoever wanted to be tagged...ehehe..xO

TRIBUTE FOR THE KING

How do I begin to start defining the essence of a true legend? Far from being a huge star across the globe, he shown an exceptional devotion to the world and every single creature it contains. His life was an inspiration to us even he faced inflicting trials and controversies throughout his life. It’s quite ironic how people tend to realize his worth as a human being just after his death. Many would acknowledge his humanly contribution to the world, all his divinely acts, generosity and that entire good things etcetera. As I noticed, this big bang that came too soon which was the death of the king, took all of us into shocked. Well, we cannot blame ourselves considering the mere fact that MJ brought difference into each one of us or merely the entire nation since he was just a little kid. As many times as I can possibly say, I’ll keep on mentioning how he change my life and your life and the great things he did if ever you don’t yet realized. Actually, I realized his importance just so after his death. I’m basically one of THEM.

As I stare at the cloudy sky at exactly 3:45 in the afternoon, I hardly recall back his songs that captured my heart and I can’t help but to be lame and sad. Funny thing to say but I bought a collection of his songs in Quiapo last week! Can you imagine the waves around the crowded place were all surrounded by the voice of MJ. I was like feeling his presence and the love from his fans, beginning to be his fans, and soon to be his fans. Most of the people roaming around and went to that place were like searching and intending to buy Michael’s dvds and cds from albums and concerts which were in fact all over the street and side walks. It’s amazing to think of this sudden whim took us and still taking us by storm or maybe typhoon. Even in daily news, you can see him and the people’s heartaches for his death.

All of sudden, people appreciate MJ’s music and the substantial message it contains as what Michael wanted people to sort out and make it possible in reality. As for his song lyrics, he placed his whole heart on it trying to make a change in the world we’re living. He’s a symbol of a true hero and peacemaker who translated his thoughts through his songs. Once you heard his soothing voice and learning the message of his songs, you’ll by then understand his deep compassion not only to his art which is music but also to the people who needed much love and care. A real man can grasp the reality of imperfection in life and still wanted to make an effort of instead doing something in order to at least share his blessings to others and make a difference.

By just looking at him changing to many different looks from the outside, all he wanted was to make a CHANGE. I’m not yet pertaining on how he changed his looks every now and then. Undefined mystery may be associated with MJ but not exactly his drive to a new world with less or if ever completely erased evilness. “Heal the World” and “Man in the Mirror” were two merely passage for him to let people hear its meaning; hence, apply it in the real world. A single human being should be capable of initiating change with his own shortcomings and inadequacy. Like other people would say that we should begin change to ourselves first so as we can be able to achieve our aim to better world. Change starts with “I” and that’s what he pertained in his lyrics in “Man in the Mirror”. So if change happened to a better “YOU”, you can start to spread the goodness in you to others. It’s just like a chain reaction. And if that happened, our world can be pull off to a better place to live reconsidering the souls dying from balderdash wars against each nation, and other baloneys that killing life. We can heal the world in our own simple ways. If MJ believed that it can happen in reality, who are we not to believe. Everything is possible even the impossible if we do believe. That thought most likely gave me the inspiration and drive to make a change to our world even though I’m just a simple being living anonymous to most people. That, I believed, is not a hindrance for me not to make a move, thus, it paves way for me to boost my confidence and try as far as I can.

Before I go further and way much off the topic, I want to let others know how MJ changed the world and how his influence made people understand the way of life. I’m definitely not patronizing him or whatever you called it, actually, I’m being honest. Behind those cosmetic surgeries and all that cases sue against him, nothing compares the essence he brought up to our minds and soul. No matter how grave people judge him, only his family, closest friends and avid supporters know the real Michael.

R.I.P.

MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON

TABI

Naranasan mo na ba
Mawalan ng makakasama?
Sa gitna ng daan
Hindi malaman ang pupuntahan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Naranasan mo na ba
Madapa at masugatan?
Hawakan mo ako
Hinding-hindi iiwan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Huwag mag-alala
Hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
Ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Paraluman - Tabi - Paraluman

This song/lyrics reminds me of myself & not pertaining to whatever you think..hehe.. Whether or not you agree with it.. I believe that I'm always on the run to anyone who needed me most.. Self-sacrificing as you called it. Massive consumption is what I can describe myself *derived from "the fear lyrics". Some friends would always been telling me how come I did those things to others? Why don't I first think of my own future instead? I've been really a big stupid being and I don't know how to deal with this kind of life! The huge problem with me is that I'm not familiar of the words "no way"!! I don't want to reject others, however deep within I'm dying to say that uneasy words!! I'm functioned not to say NO! waahh! For almost all of my life, I'm dealing with that..! Even with my classmates, friends, relatives whom asked me for a favor for instance..i can't just say NO! Maybe what answered I concluded even before is the fact that I'm afraid of REJECTION that's why saying NO is not an excuse... i hope that behind these sacrifices is a Golden Lining waiting for me...Only God knows... Whoever can help me or give some piece of advice..you can do so.. will be appreciated.. :)

2009 SUMMER VACATION

The week that has been was one of the most memorable vacation so far. After two years of not being able to even visit my mom side's province, we finally grab this one week vacation courtesy of mommy yolly. We rode on a plane [cebu pacific] last May 26, 2009 12:05 pm.Only 5 of us managed to get there [me, mama, papa, aljon and kua mon] since our other relatives have difficulties whether financial or by distance conflicts. But anyways, the trip must go on.

@ Terminal Three

Since our grandparents are getting old and we want them both to enjoy and spend time w/ each other together with our relatives there. Though it's kinda weird coz it was the first time we actually have our vacation w/ only five of us mªnileños..just so you know, more than 10 persons were we everytime we visit there.

May 24 - 1st day in Ormoc. From Tacloban Airport [Arrived there @ 5pm not to be exact..lol.], we rode a service van [duptours] going to Ormoc. Fetched by Tito Noe and dropped by to Tita Hermie's crib and fetched her and tito edwin as well going to Curva. My LOLO's Bday! A celebration and gatherings or reunion w/ relatives. There's Lechon and other craving foods. My mom, dad, aljon and kua mon were all busy catching up things w/ our relatives while I watched TV and a bit bored. shh..

May 26 - Ate jan, bb shawn and anne's arrival day from Manila. Catched up. I was drunk courtesy of TUBA and Matador! My gawsh! It was my first time be tipsy like that! First time ko nagsuka ng bongangbonga! *excuse me!* lmao! Super sakit sa ulo! Para akong magcocollapse! LMAO! But the night was fun, videoke..laughters.. and all that! saya! We slept in Papa Roy's house..hehe. Due to tipsyness.

ate jan & bb shawn


look who's tipsy!!

sing and drink.

May 27 - We went in Ormoc City Proper to rent in a Internet shop but first we dropped by to Tita Hermie's house. Updated all the internet accounts and then played rock legends in FB. I was about to watch BOF but then my cousins decided to go to Gaisano coz we're gonna buy in the supermarket. Then, we went straight home after buying the necessary items. After eating our dinner, Me, aljon and Kua mon, again went to Papa roy's house. Nagperya kami w/ Ate Jan, Anne, and Dodong..I dunno what you called that game but I know it's common to any peryahan...Ung may dice na three pices w/ different colors on its sides. Then you have to guess what color will appear upon rolling the dice. Something like that..hehe.. Cant you imagine, I lose 2 pesos!! watta! hahaha!! Watched Poohkwang and then slept @ Papa Roy's house.

May 28 - Headed to Palompon to visit San Antonio de Padua. Pray, pray.. After that, we headed to baybay and ate our lunch @ the seaside..Chicken Barbeque yumyum! Me and Aljon wanted to go again to ate jan but kua mon was LAZY and just slept, telebabad..haaarrrr!

Tita Sonia & Mama

May 29 - Bisperas ng Fiesta! After watching primetime bida.. @ 12midnight.. we went again to Papa Roy's house before we head to the disco! haha. Picture2 then drunk a little. we didn't danced because most of the song were bisrock! watta!!? We can't relate!! huhu.. then after we decided to go home instead...the DJ played foreign songs!!!!! watta?!!! ... we chitchatted and slept.

kua ronan.kua mon.ate jan.len.anne.aljon


Jay-R & Aljon


ate jan & me @ the disco


Kua Mon.Jepjep.Len.Anne.Ate Jan.Aljon

May 30 - Happy Fiesta!!! Early in the morning, aljon, kua mon and me..went home..coz we slept in Papa roy's house. We have to prepare for the mass and christening of my inaanak gabrielle therese cruz [ gLaiza's bb girl]. Yeah ofcours, Filipino Time, we're half a hour late!! but don't you worry coz the homily was a hour long! gawsh!!! After the mass was the baptism..then, we went to the reception in Gly's relatives near the parish church... The foods were all great! So after we ate, kua mon and I went straight to Papa Roy's house again..nakiki-fiesta lang! hahaha. I preferred to stay there coz i find it boring to go home..there's no videoke and people to have chikahan w/.hehe.. ate jan. anne, and ate wayette were there.. Sila ka-chikahan ko! haha.Videoke again and I'm a bit tipsy again! wahaha! Picture2 w/ gigi [ate wayette bb girlk] I'm ready for another disco but unfortunately there's no disco that night! Us three, kua mon aljon and I, went home to fix ourselves and have a short nap but mine was about 4 hours I think haha. I woke up 12midnight. Then Us Three went to Curva to see if there's disco or whatever..There is but the main concept was the coronation night for Miss Curva I guess. then we we to Papa Roy's house to check if they're still awake.. but they're not..so we just went home and sleep.

Anne.Shawn.Gigi.Aljon.Ghera

May 31 - Swimming @ Lamanok! Babad kami ni Anne! Adik kami! haha. i haven't been into a beach for 2 years..so I said that very moment...this is it! wahaha! Together w/ two stranger teenager kids, we prompt to swim into the far side or almost malalim na part ng dagat! At first, anne and I were kinda scared to go farther but then we enjoyed it! Though malakas ang wave, go pa rin kami until my uncle instructed us to come back at the seashore, kc delikado na daw..hehe. Super fun talaga.. Our boys or cousins were like korny kc tagal nila bago maligo...mga inarte! haha..I and Anne got bruises bcoz of the rough rock we tried to climb! After the swim swim swim, We went home fixed ourselves then went to the City to buy some delicacies for pasalubong.

aljon in the middle of the ocean


Me & Anne


Shawn


Nikkie.Me.Anne.Aljon

June 1 - 6:10 am departure time from Tacloban to Manila. We're so exhausted and Sleepy. 8:30am arrival @ our house.. Home Sweet Home. Later in the afternoon, I headed to Dagupan w/ Ate Jan and Anne.. sumabay lang ako sa kanila. Their destination was actually in Tarlac. Chika Galore kami while in the bus and super tawanan to death!! Sa amin na lng ang pinagkwen2han nmen! super laughtrip talaga! ampupu! I arrived in Dagupan approx. 10pm. Tired super.

June 2 - Back again in Manila w/ Angel Mae. Need to take care of her for a month for her studies.

The vacation, though shortlived, still was a blast! the memories shared with loved ones will surely endured and treasured eternally. Kabitin lang.

Cenxa sa d ko nareplyan!! i'll try soon..ayt?!! hihi...i'll be really busy super!! huhu..d na masyado maka2pag-adiktus..grrr! anyways, i'll find time to reply to all u folks..:) labshoooo all!:D

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