Friday, May 8, 2009

THE FEAR

Ironic it seems but I'm deprived of any single thought to share. Perhaps, this moment my mind is occupied with nonetheless than nothing. Again, there's force within that pushing me to type in my keyboard just to update my spoiled blog. Okey, Here's a sensible lyrics from Lily Allen's "The Fear".

THE FEAR

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and f***loads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

Chorus:
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so f***ing fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m program to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

Chorus:
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Bridge:
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I’m getting thinner

Chorus:
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cause I’m being taken over by fear


I love the song lyrics of Lily Allen's single from her second album It’s Not Me, It’s You. She earned tremendous accolades from this piece. At first, I don't actually managed to listen promptly to the lyrics but upon hearing it few times, i felt in love w/ it. So, the intention by this entry is to break down every stanza of the said song just to put up my personal opinion whether or not you agree with it.
  • I want to be rich and I want lots of money
    I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
    I want loads of clothes and f***loads of diamonds
    I heard people die while they are trying to find them
This changing world made each people desire for perfection or at least closer to perfection. Who don't want lots of money? Most of us are materialistic or having bourgeois mentality. It's a driving force for some cruel people to obtain criminal acts just to satisfy they're craving for luxury or wealth. I admit that I'm more of a materialistic and so to say that I know my limitations. We can surely dream big and to achieve, we need to carry our heavy butt off and work with purity and conscientious!
  • I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
    ‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
    I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
    I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner
The trend nowadays is becoming shameless to one's actions. Self-confidence can also progress into higher level w/c is equivalent to indecency. Trying to catch fame and acquired first-rate attention, some would do the most outrageous thing like there's no tomorrow. Somewhat i realized how hard it is to please anyone as much as you wanted to be. Even if you tried harder, it seems non-sense and no one can really see you still. Maybe some of you will say, "You can't erase the fact that some people will not ever understand you. So don't expect from them." So true and to add up, Just be yourself coz people will love your genuine heart without being sarcastic.
  • I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
    I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
    When we think it will all become clear
    ‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear
I was caught up with this stanza coz I'm feeling the same way. Actually this is my shout out in FS. The road to success is a bit blurry for me at this time. Rocky road as you can defined it. I've been very unpredictable that I never thought I'll be. As we mature, changes happens unexpectedly. When we were young, we tried to draw our dreams in a piece of paper. Plans were made and sculpturized. Even we voiced out with our close ones how we plan out life to be in the future. But i really don't know How I meant to feel anymore. I keep on saying to myself, "don't lose hope, strive harder and PLEASE move your feet under the ground". However, crisis inside my thought crumbling down with none in the earth i know the reason why. The only fact I know right now is that I'm taken over by the FEAR most specifically ANXIETY or fear of the unknown!
  • Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
    It’s all about fast cars and passing each other
    But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
    and that’s what makes my life so f***ing fantastic
The world of today are now polluted of addiction to entertainment issues and taking aside the real problem of the world. Some would associate their lives to their favorite movie stars w/c is too ironic. The character from a series or tv show or whatever were kinda adopted by most of the generation today. They imitate those people that they idolize or maybe worshipped. That's a fad and sometimes becoming addictive. Everything was all about what's in and what's hot. People who wants to be on the line of trend, tried hard to become one of those social climbers. Taking to the aside of being into a group of socialite is big plus for some. Nonetheless, i don't care at all of what's written in this paragraph. haha. It's random and blurred. lmao. I'm a fan of some artists, so I belong! lol. But to the extent that I'll be TH or trying hard & crazy over them! In addition, Being plastic has its own positive and negative attributes. Yes, I'm plastic at times to those people who are undeserving. Being sarcastic is another topic and if argue regarding that, it will took me hours to type all my thoughts! Don't get me wrong. As the word implies, PLASTIC can be good in a most special way you haven't knew yet.
  • And I am a weapon of massive consumption
    and its not my fault it’s how I’m program to function
    I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
    I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner
Based on how I understand this we became, once, twice, or few times in our life, used by others for some reasons whether we're aware or unaware. But for me, I'll try to put this in a good way. My purpose in life is to fulfill my family's dream as much as mine. My second priority is myself. Maybe they don't even realized that coz I'm not showy and I don't give them idea of that fact. I was born to help others and that's my function. I remember how I used to think back then everytime I'm mad. I rant and said to myself that,"I'm just a robot here, everyone care less about me!" Well that was just a petty drama and I believed that there's no wrong with me as a massive consumption to my family and afterwards, to those people in need. Daydreaming makes me accomplished all of which..to help my family and deprived people. But believe me, someday I'm gonna make all those in reality. I want to be an instrument to change the world. Watch me out!
  • Forget about guns and forget ammunition
    Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
    Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
    Now everything is cool as long as I’m getting thinner
PEACE is the word that will describe this. It's the rarest word ever. As I said previously, I'm a piece of instrument that will make a change in my own little way. This time I'll try harder to fulfill my part in my existence in humanity.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

HANDWRITING

I got tagged by gello kun.

MY HANDWRITING


I think some of you are familiar of this commercial by a little girl advertised by Camella Homes.
I'm kinda suffering to sickness called "LSS" or Last Song Syndrome! lol
Forget about my handwriting coz i haven't practiced that skill for almost a year!

So now, do i have to pass this or rather tag others as well? Sorry, newbie is in the house!:P
Here's the list:
Charmoii
Jaimee
Kathrinx
Lollii
Rich

Thursday, April 30, 2009

BAKIT AKO NAIINIS??

Note: Purong tagalog ako ngaun sa unang pagkakataon actually may halos ingles din. My Apologize to those who can't understand. I surely needs to express the depth of my emotions this time. I hope you do understand.

Upang sagutin ang katanungang, "Bakit ako naiinis?", narito ang mga posibleng dahilan:

  1. Malamang iisipin mong ang babaw ko, pro ganito talaga ako eh, naiinis ako dahil nasa "bottom three" sila Adam Lambert at Matt Giraud ng American Idol. Pareho ko silang idolo kaya naiinis ako. Lalo na si Adam Lambert na hindi marapat na italaga sa ganong posisyon dahil sa kanyang natatanging talento! Kauna-unahang beses lang napunta si Adam sa bottom 3! Bakit kayo nagkulang AMERICA?! haha! "Bitter-Sweet" nga kung tawagin ang pangyayari para sa akin. Sapagkat, masaya akong nailigtas si Adam Lambert ngunit ang nakakalungkot ay natanggal naman si Matt. Haay, ang buhay nga naman. Marahil tinatawanan mo ako dahil ang O.A. ko, pwes wala kang magagawa nakikibasa ka lang! ahaha! Kakainis!!
  2. Sino bang hindi maiinis kapag wala ka ng perang pambili ng gusto mo lalo na't "super sale" ngaun sa SM SuperMalls? haha. Kakalungkot namang isipin na kung kelan pa "sale" eh wala na akong "budget"! NAMAN! Kakainis!!
  3. Ikaw ba kung "graduate" ka na at wala ka pang trabaho, hindi ka ba maiinis? Isa kang "PT or Professional Tambay"! Isa akong malaking pabigat at palamunin!! Nakakahiya mang sabihin ngunit ano ang magagawa ko? Ang ganda kasi ng bansa natin, punong-puno ng oppurtunidad! Mag dilang anghel sana ako. Kakainis!!
  4. Madalas ko itong pinagiisipan kung paano ba ako makakatulong sa mga nangangailangan kong kapamilya ngayo't alam kong wala naman akong trabaho! Sobra akong "na-gui-guilty" paano ba naman wala akong magawa sa tanda kong ito! haha. Sa totoo lang, "feeling" ko sobrang wala akong kwenta! Kakainis!!
  5. Hindi ko alam kung maiinis ako o hindi sa mga taong mahilig manloko. Syempre nakakainis nga un diba?! Ngunit paano kung ang pagsisinungaling ang may magandang rason na para sa ikakabuti ng mga taong importante sayo. Hindi ko rin maintindihan kasi hindi ko gawain o "hobby" ang manloko o magsinungaling lalo na sa mga taong mahalaga sakin. Hindi ako magpapakaimpokrita kung sasabihin kong hindi ako nagsisinungaling, ginagawa ko din un ngunit mga mababaw na dahilan lamang. Naiinis lang ako sa mga taong manloloko "period". Kakainis!!
  6. Eto pa ang walang katapusang "issue" patungkol sa kaso ni Ted Failon! Grabe na ito, hindi ko mapigilang maghimutok at mainis sa ginawang panghaharas ng mga pulis sa pamilya ni Mr. Failon. Sino bang hindi mababadtrip di ba?! Namatay na lang ang asawa niya hindi man lang siya tinantanan ng mga isyu at akusasyon na binabato sa kanya. "Unfair" talaga ang buhay at kahit si "Superman" walang magagawa! Kakainis!!
  7. Ang pangarap ika nga nila ay makakmtam basta magtiyaga ka lang. Eh bakit ako nakamtam ko nga ang pangarap ko ngunit subalit datapwat, hindi pa rin ako masaya. Ang dami kong pinagdaanang hirap, hindi pa ba sapat un para maging masaya? Kung iisipin kong maigi, hindi ko nga pala pangarap ang pagiging isang nars. Itinawid ko lang ang aking sarili nang sa gayon ay magkaroon ng magandang pinagtapos at magandang kinabukasan sa hinaharap na "ikaka-proud" ng aking magulang at kamag-anakan. Bakit hindi pa rin ako masaya? Madalas ko yan itanong sa aking sarili at madalas ding hindi ko alam ang kasagutan. Ikaw ba alam mo?? Kakainis!!
  8. Mga taong hindi nakaka-appreciate ng ginagawa ko ay isa pang nakakainis! Hindi naman sa humihingi ako sa iyo ng utang na loob dahil alam ko dapat hindi yan "iniimpose", kusa lang yang ipinararamdam. Ang tanging nais ko lamang ay maisip mong "nageexist" ako at hinihingi ko ang pagbigay mo ng halaga sa akin, "vice-versa". Kakainis!!
  9. Alam kong walang kwenta ang susunod kaso naiinis ako at hindi ko mapigilang maghimutok! Ukol ito sa "sikretong kasal kuno" nila Juday-Ryan na sobrang O.A.! Korny talaga nila, "feeling important"! Sorry na lang pero eto talaga opinion ko! Pasensya na sa mga fans..eewww!!! Kakainis!!
  10. Mahaba-haba na din itong blog na ito, malamang hindi mo binasa! Yabang mo naman! Makonsensya ka! Bat ako binabasa ko naman ung sayo ha! haha!! Kaw ba hindi ka maiinis na wala man lang magtiyagang magbasa ng ginawa mong blog? Matapos mong ibahagi ang aking damdamin sa pamamagitan ng blog na ito, tapos iwawalang bahala mo lang!! Maayy Gaaaaddd! Kakaiyak naman nun! haha. Sa nakakabasa nitong huling numero, pwedeng nilaktawan mu ang ibang numero at ang binasa mu lang ay itong number 10, pwede rin namang dumeretsyo ka na sa number 10 dahil tamad ka magbasa, at pwede ring dakilang ka at tunay na kaibigan! Salamat at Saludo ako sayo!! Pagpapalain ka ng diyos! AMEN! At sa hindi ito binasa at kumopya lang sa unang nagkomento, eto sayo.."TOINK" magingat ka sa dinadaanan mu, sana madulas ka! bwahaha! JOKE! May araw ka rin! haha..Kakainis!!

NIGHT OUT


Since we don't have digicam, we decided to have snapshots on the photobooth @ timezone!! Look!! We're not yet prepared..& the designs are not good enough!! haha! we're a bit innocent [sori naman! galing bundok lang! lol]:x
[oopsssiiee!! GOT MY NEW HAIRCUT DONE!]


GILIGANS TRINOMA
04/28/09
Beer Day with My cousins:
Kuya mon & Ate wayette, my brother Aljon, Ate Grace and MEEee!

Before ate wayette head off to Ormoc on the 30th, we've fixed a date for us to hang out and bond just even once. It was was fun & we've enjoyed the night. I was a bit drunk but still tolerable! ahaha:P What made the night worst was when Aljon put lotS of hotsauce on our "pulutaN" beef sisig!! waaaH! that was so distressing! haha..but anyways the night was surreal. The Only sad part there was that we don't have digicam!!!! gRR!! But good news!! I received my new digicam yesterday!! The photos that i just posted above were only cellphone pics.. I'll try to post photos from my new digicam SOON..btw, it's sony DSC W220. I'm so happy! haha!!:P

Saturday, April 25, 2009

ADAM LAMBERT IS <3

Note: This post is actually inspired by Jhoice's entry about A.I.



Last performance of Adam Lambert entitled If I can't have you.

I posted this coz I can't resist my emotions regarding His unstoppable talent. The song actually made me felt his deep passion, pain, sorrow that his trying to convey in his interpretation and his heartfelt performance carried me away! Every week he showed different sides of him making his performances unique and not a cliche. While listening, I didn't noticed that I'm having goosebumps already! Everytime I listens to his music, it feels like I'm melting down and cutted into pieces! His voice always turns me into puddle of mush! He's definitely a winner! The best Idol ever! Hands down! :P


Is he GAY or NOT?
If he's really gay, and so what?!! haha.. At least people voted him based on his talents and his looks i guess.. but talent counts most! And just for those questioning his sexuality, get a life! Just a suggestion! ahahaha!
Get to know Adam lambert even more, click this : American Idol 8- Adam Lambert

V-O-T-E FOR A-D-A-M L-A-M-B-E-R-T AMERICA

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Saturday, April 18, 2009

THANKSGIVING & APPRECIATION

The date was last April 15, 2009 Wednesday.The event was in school about Thanksgiving for June 2008 and November 2008 Board Passers.Yuh right, I attended coz it was confirmed that both set of passers are welcomed in the said event / program as they called it. But eventually, I'm the lazy one..so I arrived quarter to 11:00am w/c was supposed to be 9:00am as we intended and as the event scheduled to start. There was a mass in the chapel of SJD Hospital then the program proceeded at the gym of the school. Well, obviously, I'm way too late so my friends waited for me as I am the last one to arrive..How important I am!! or feeling important..anyways.. I know that it's my fault & I've already extend my beg for forgiveness to my loyal friends. So as we climb the staircase, I'm sort of feeling embarass coz we already had our time [june board passers] last year, when the school provided us thanksgiving mass and treated us in Max's. But as they said, we should swallow our pride and shyness instead, have fun watching the program made by our dear clinical instructors and of course endure the foods c/o KFC! Sadly, I & Joyce don't have certificate received.



Our Clinical Intructors made a special number wherein one of our favorite C.I. [Mr. Alexander Regala ]sang "this is the moment" w/ his back-up singers [they're C.I.s too!].


It was fun coz we had the chance to take snapshots w/ our colleagues.


w/ Mrs. Gregori [Our Batchs' Dean]


ghera.elaine.reshma.joyce.emmie.karen


*SnapsHot GirLs*


Finally, we've got our yearbook!! After one year! Yeah! It's petite but cute:)

Sunset by the Bay

Our final stop was in MOA [Mall of Asia]...what's new?! LOL. Joyce wasn't able to join us there coz she needed to attend important matters. But anyways, the show must continue! I, Resh, & Karen had our picture galore coutesy of Resh's Cam. We took shots until we dropped, actually the digicam battery was the first one to drop! haha.:) I enjoyed the day as much as I could. Thanks to my friends whom insisted me to come back here in Manila [coz I'm actually in Dagupan that time looking for career/oppurtunity] so as to attend in that Thanksgiving & Appreciation held in our School and to have small reunion w/ friends and batchmates. That day was a history and as they say..History repeat itself..so I hope one day will come that we're gonna be all together again and just have fun & chill, while reminiscing the days back then. I miss you all guys!!!! SO MUCH! :)) TILL THEN.

For more photos, click here : Thanksgiving & By the Bay

Monday, April 13, 2009

BACK IN MANILA

WHoa! Im now back in Manila after almost one month minus one day!!
How I miss the overflowing black smokes coming from city's vehicles!! LOL!
To make my first day here exciting and enjoying, I went in DV to shop..! So damn miss it!
I actually bought quite huge amount of items!!! ehehe...you can't blame me though.. but my mom do! LOL. After going to dv, I planned to clean my messy room but unfortunately, I had a massive laziness attack! ahahaha! Eventually, I watched parental control, date my mom, && primetime bida! :D
I have this gut feeling that our plan which to go out for an outing to a nearest beach or pool resort as an alternative, will not happen or be cancelled. Considering the fact that we don't have clear objective or plan, it made me think that another unpursuable mouth saying and broken promise! watda?!! ahaha:))

Can't wait to receive my brand new digicam!! I'm so sick! I want to have my addiction back!! yey! Definitely to capture moments!! Looks who's excited?!! :D
My decision to stay here in Manila for a week has something to do with our so called Thanksgiving and Appreciation for the June and November board Passers.. But with unnecessary news I received minutes ago..It indicated that only November board passers should attend! Hell ya, ARE YOU SERIOUS? I came all the way from Pangasinan (6 hours away from Manila [capital]) just to attend that freakin considered reunion of our batch but then I sort of find out this gossip [still there's no confirmation]. I'm kinda pissed off whether it's true or a fad! Calm down ghera, calm down(...)